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November 29, 2023. part 2. Mom talking bout I just wanna be difficult for no reason, blah blah blah. When she hangs up, lil bro and I talk for a bit. I flipped out a bit and said how I don’t know who the fuck she think she talking too. I told lil bro that I ain’t been picking my hair out because of how I don’t like the direction of how my life went. I also mentioned that I have that attitude to where I’m just like, Fuck it, I don’t care about my hair !! That fuck life type of attitude in a way !! It feels like I’m just breathing and eating too survive and I’m not truly happy with my life right now bruh !! I kind of hate it !! It’s like I’m not really living, just surviving !! Like I’m just in a hole man. So I’m just like, I ain’t got the energy or mood too kinda pull myself out ! It’s not that easy to just get better !! I’m a very strong person mentally, at least I was !! I tried making my life better !! It just won’t budge !! Me tryna make my life better too me, means getting more pussy and money !! Too achieve this, I’ve broken into many cars, tried robbing some escorts and only robbed one, scammed many people, biked out too cut off a catalytic converter but the shit broke down, tried advertising my tables on Facebook for a decent amount of sales, etc. These have all been a means too getting some money !! A decent amount at least !! Life’s just a stupid bitch !! Doing all these things, still hasn’t really brought me a really good chunk of money. Like, not one scam made me $1000 or more. Also, Facebook had restricted my account to where I can’t message people back who’ve messaged me about the LG tv I had listed !! Niggas wasn’t hitting me up nearly as much as then for that fucking tv before !! When I can’t reply too messages, now I start getting people who wanna buy the fucking tv ?!! Mad dumb !!! So yeah. Lil bro thought I just have a discipline issue and that’s why I don’t pick my hair everyday. That’s not it man !! I told lil bro that I just gotta build myself up and that nobody could truly do that for me. That it seems like mom is just kicking me when I’m already down !! I’m not anywhere near, not even close, too where I could be in life man !! Lil bro talks about how people do the things they like too lift themselves up. Working out, drawing, journaling, bike riding. Just hobbies that they like and that’s peaceful too them. Lil bro said that dickhead and yeah, that’s that nigga nickname for not driving off two years back when lil bro got in that beef; anyway he said this guy smokes weed a lot and is depressed himself. Anyhow, I went into the barber and ended up getting a shape up. And I don’t like this Asian nigga !! This time, he seemed like he rushed me and didn’t do much of a good job. I just paid him and almost walked out without paying. I fucking should’ve !! I left after paying him. I connected too some Wi-Fi and texted lil bro saying I was ready. Some other Asian nigga who was older, kept walking up and down the block. I ended up crossing the street too this Spanish store. I went in and soon came out. I walked back across the street and lil bro soon arrived. He parked by the Spanish store, so I crossed the street again and walked up too the car. Someone was in the front. Jaden from our school, hopped out the car and dapped me up. I knew now, that lil bro was probably going to look for that guy he wanted to fight. The Spanish dude in the front, was nester. Also went too our school. The one who beat the murder case. He ended up stabbing a kid over two years ago who didn’t make it. He got in the back and I got in the front. Lil bro and Jaden agreed to drive too Gold’s gym in wappingers. We ended up arriving at the gym before Jaden and riding around a bit.